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Better days

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything here. The last time I wrote anything on this blog was a year and a half ago (!!!) That’s very weird to look back on right now. So much has happened since then and my life is very different today compared to the beginning of 2018.

So let’s see; I moved to a new city 10 hours away from my family and friends. I first moved into my own apartment, but moved in with 5 others three months later. I began my first year of university and started studying something that I truly found interesting, but yet very demanding.

It’s crazy how fast a year goes by. In many ways I am happier today. However, there are certain areas in my life where I feel helpless and lost. It’s hard to describe it, but at times I feel sadness and loneliness creep into my head and I feel broken. I am very grateful for my life and I feel very lucky for the life my parents have given me. I don’t want to complain and feel sorry for myself, because I truly don’t see the long term benefit with that lol. It does more harm than necessary! However, I sometimes wish I wasn’t so emotional and that when certain things happened in my life I would move on instead of dwelling on it for months and years to come! I pray one day I will find my peace, in whatever form that might be. Let’s all pray for better days to come, because I know they exist, somewhere behind the grey, cloudy skies in our minds.

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Breathe In. Breathe Out.

I can’t believe it’s mid-June already. Time really flies fast. I have started my summer job at a hotel as a maid, which I L.O.V.E. Who would’ve thought that? I’ve always wanted to try it and see what it’s like, and I mean… Even though it’s physically challenging, because you’re using your entire body for 8 hours a day, it’s fun because of the people that you’re working with. They’re so nice, most of them anyways. But aren’t there always someone in your work place or school that will always be a bit nasty and ignorant? I guess we all deal with those people at some points in our lives.

These last couple of weeks, I have also thought a lot about a friendship turned sour. It’s the same friendship that I’ve struggled with for years, but I always seem to get back and pretend like it’s okay, when in reality, it’s really bothering me. You really want that person to change for the better and not make your life miserable, but still you just let it happen all over again. Sometimes it’s hard to let go of someone. There are just some people that will always stay with you and have you wrapped around their little finger. But I guess at some point, you realize that you’re worth more than that and you become free. I hope that day will┬ácome soon.

“I made a top 10 list of all the things I miss, your lying eyes and lips… They didn’t make it.”

Christina